“The world gives to the givers and takes from the takers.” — Joe Polish, Entrepreneur and founder of Genius Network Interview Series
I write each week because I enjoy it. It makes me feel good.
It’s also become my art form. How I like to express myself.
And writing is also something I do for me. When I write, it’s because I want (or need) to work through an idea. To understand a concept. To grow into something.
And I write because I like to give. People have given to me. And I give to others. This is a better place because we can all receive help and provide help.
And I am proud that the free content I provide is good enough to help many of you leave the law on your own.
So now, let’s think of who you can help.
No, I don’t mean helping the client you don’t align with. Or helping the associate you’re competing with. Or helping the partner you’re actually afraid of.
Working for them is not really help. It’s fear driven reaction.
Ask for help. Not because you are weak. But because you want to remain strong.
Les Brown – Motivational speaker, author, and former member of the Ohio House of Representatives
It’s so difficult for us to ask for help
I was speaking with a client last week who I’m helping to leave the law and he said to me at the end of our session, “I’m really happy I put aside my initial apprehension and reached out and asked you for help.”
This comment is so extraordinary in our little part of the Universe because of the simple fact that we attorneys are not inclined to ask for help.
Sure sometimes we can walk down the hall to a colleague in the firm and ask for his or her opinion.
But so many of us sit for long periods of time isolated in our offices, behind a Word document, pushing to complete briefs on our own.
So many of us project an image to the client that we know (or can know) everything.
So many of us work very hard to make sure opposing counsel and the judge think we have the upper hand and that we know what we’re doing.
In San Francisco subways a new ad campaign is running. Its for Fiverr, an online marketplace that connects business owners with freelancers who can help them with tasks in order to grow.
I took a picture of one of the ads that stood out to me. See it above. It reflects two core truths about starting a business: You need help to grow your business … and you also may be crazy.
Entrepreneurs need a lot of help to get started. That’s why they get co-founders and venture investment.
And they also always run into naysayers. They always run into doubters. They always have people around them who are worried about them and say their ideas are crazy.
It’s good to be crazy
And can’t we say the same thing for us unhappy attorneys leaving the law? For most of us, if we were to tell those close to us that we wanted to leave, many would likely dissuade us. Doubt us. Call us crazy.
They’ll first ask:
How can you leave such a stable job? How can you throw your law school education away? Who else will hire you?
I’m always on the lookout for stories from the Leave Law Behind community, of people first realizing they want to do something different to those people who take that first step and actually leave and do something else.
Here is the story of Sheila Agnew, a Leave Law Behind reader, former family law attorney and now published author. She has a compelling life story, of leaving the law … going back to it … and now finding her Unique Genius as a writer. I hope you enjoy.
In 2003 I was a new, lateral, commercial litigation associate at a fairly small firm in downtown Manhattan. On my first Tuesday morning, a senior partner stepped into my office:
“Welcome to the firm Susan. How are you getting on?”
“Fine,” I said.
I didn’t point out that my name wasn’t Susan. I didn’t care enough to bother.
“Wonderful,” he boomed, “we’re quiet in commercial litigation at the moment but there’s lots of work for you in matrimonial litigation. There’s a case going to trial in a few weeks.”
It was not my dream as a little girl to grow up to be a divorce lawyer.
I constantly receive emails from many of you. Many of them are emails simply saying thanks.
You thank me for starting this blog. It has helped you leave the law, it has helped you feel not so alone, it has helped you to motivate to make change, it has helped you to take a first step.
I love getting these emails.
And the one thing I love as much as getting the emails is replying to these emails with my own thanks.
I thank you for taking the time to thank me.
I thank you for taking a baby step to just send me a note.
I thank you for providing me insight into your own personal situation.
I thank you for having the courage to ask for help and advice and where to go next.
I thank you for reading what I write, and commenting on it, providing me feedback, suggesting new ideas, and sending me resources and news for me to follow.
I thank you for being on the cutting edge of what’s possible for us unhappy,
While many of us want to leave the law altogether, some of us still want to consider finding a way to practice the law in a non-traditional, temporary, or part time way.
Those of us who are Moms and Dads want to know how to do this in order to be more present with their children. Those of us who are sick or disabled want to know how to do this in order to find ways to work that meet our special needs. Those of us who are just burnt out with the BigLaw lifestyle and want to leave the law want to know how to do this as a way to segue out of the law without losing a steady stream of income.
But for many of us, there has never been a real good fit between what we are looking for in an attorney job and lifestyle and what the current set of firms and organizations out there provide.
This is changing.
There are now many more alternatives. To help us understand the new companies and entities that are popping up to provide lawyers and clients with a new way to do and receive legal work,
My son is five years old and this year he discovered Star Wars.
And the main way he enjoys Star Wars is through playing with his Star Wars Lego toys.
The Ewok Attack set. The Battle on Saleucami set. The Phantom ship. The Jedi Interceptor. He loves ‘em.
And he’s actually pretty good at building them. It can be tough for a young child to fit the pieces together, and he’s gotten a lot better. He can fit the feet of figures on the Lego pieces so they stand upright, he can get the small red lights to fit on the end of the blaster guns, and he can get the spears to fit in the Gungan hands.
But some pieces still give him trouble, and one in particular bedeviled him tonight: he just couldn’t get that arm piece, with that rounded knob, to fit back into the socket of the figure’s torso.
I wanted him so badly to do it on his own. I wanted the full strength of his fine motor skills to kick in,
This past Saturday night I wrote. The family was asleep. Asleep. Asleep and quiet.
We have a new dog, this great, young, big bundle of energy and the dog was asleep.
The house was quiet. I was quiet. Very quiet.
And for the first time in what had been a busy week I was really able to pause and think. I put on music that helps me think. I breathed in and out calmly and had a cup of hot tea and enjoyed the solitude and I thought. I thought and reflected. It was nice.
I walked softly around the house and looked out the window towards where the ocean would be and all there was was black sky and incoming fog, San Francisco fog, grey, fast moving, windy, chilling summer fog, coming off of the ocean and making scary whistling sounds, and whipping down our street and thrilling me with its force and numbing the City with its chill.
I walked down the hall and put the heat on.
And the heat came on and I relaxed and I thought and I tried hard to put these thoughts and ideas together into something worthy,
“If you want happiness for an hour—take a nap. If you want happiness for a day—go fishing. If you want happiness for a month—get married. If you want happiness for a year—inherit a fortune. If you want happiness for a lifetime—help others.”
– Chinese proverb
I received an email from a reader last week. The subject line read “Thank you”. She wrote in to tell me that ever since law school she knew the law wasn’t for her. She did not enjoy law school, but nonetheless still finished. And she has been miserable in her few years practicing. She did not like the work of being a lawyer and she and her boss did not connect in a meaningful way.
So she just quit. Gave notice. Gone.
And she spent that day reading Leave Law Behind and it has calmed her down and let her know she wasn’t alone and made her feel like a real live person again and she wanted to thank me for that.
I have received many emails like this over the years.
Okay, quick test. What is 9X9?
Pretty easy those first four multiplication questions, but that last one, hmm. Had to think about it, didn’t you. Here’s how I finally figured it out: 13 times 10 is 130, and 8 is 2 less than 10, so I’ll subtract 13 X 2 which is 26, and so then 130 minus 26 is … 104? Right?
Yes, it is 104, but why did it take so much longer to get 104 than it did to get 81, and 15 and 42, and 64?
Because 81, 15, 42 and 64 have been “imprinted” in our sub-consciousness. Whenever we learned multiplication in our respective formative years, this pattern and knowledge was repeated and repeated and repeated to us so that it was imprinted into our sub-consciousness. We just know it. It’s fact.
But we only went up to twelve. 12 X 12? Sure, 144.
But 13 X 8? 13 X 5? 15 X 14? 16 X 17?
We didn’t learn these. These weren’t repeated. These weren’t imprinted.